Tag: Pregnancy Loss

To Grieving Fathers on Father’s Day

Whether you began here or here, your goal was this and eventually this. But something went terribly wrong. So you’ve spent more time here and here than you planned. When they call to ask about her, you tell them. When they neglect to ask about you, you think, It’s okay. I’m okay. And when they say things like: “God has…

Dear Uterus: You Are a Murderous Bastard

In my head, murderous bastard just isn’t right. I mean, certainly there are more eloquent ways to express my hatred of your serial killing, your incompetence when nurturing a fertilized ovum, and your obvious disdain for human life. But nothing comes, so murderous bastard it is. In days past, I looked down at women who were in the place I…

My name is Hollis (Part One)

We suffer losses, and it is such a Hobson’s Choice as to which one is the deeper cut. Those losses caused by death final and fatal and the ghosts that haunt from that place. Or those losses that linger and will not die and have the good grace to become ghosts.  – Charissa Grace White Mr. Jankowski is addicted to licorice. …

My Sacrifice Upon Autumn’s Altar

If I could choose one season in which to live eternally, it would undoubtedly be fall: when the leaves start to change, the air smells of mist and cloves and my favorite apple orchard, Curran’s, begins selling its much coveted apple cider doughnuts. To me, there’s nothing more beautiful than fall: its sights, its smells, and the emotion its return…

Emerging to Own Myself Again

Some time ago, fellow blogger and sister-in-loss, Justine Froelker, reached out and asked me to review a chapter of her upcoming book, Ever Upward: Overcoming the Lifelong Losses of Infertility to Own a Childfree Life. I’ll admit I was hesitant, since reading and somehow “grading” a person’s heart notes can be scary, especially if the relationship isn’t the stuff of…